Ok...this is where I'm going to spill everything because no one ever reads this and especially not anyone I know.  So here goes.  First of all how can adoption be unethical?  I mean how does that concept even get into someone's brain?  Seriously?  What is so wrong about adopting a child?  because it's not part of you?  Why is that so wrong?  Because you didn't have it?  Why should that matter?  I mean as long as you're going to be a good mother and father to it why should it matter where the child came from.  Does that mean that you shouldn't love any other children than the children that are the fruit of your loins?  What is that about?  I just don't understand people's reasoning.  As if adoption is evil and wrong.  Why wouldn't you want to give a child the opportunity to a better life.  To be happy not to be stuck into a place where they're scared or ebing treated badly.  I just don't understand that reasoning.  I guess I never will.  I mean ggrrg..  I'll shut up now.  Now...on a I dunno...more confused note...which I'm not sure how I can more confused than I am about that...but here goes.  I really have fallen in love with someone.  I mean I can't help it.  Everytime I see him I dunno and talk tohim.  It's just unexplainable and I love him.  Cherries.  I just don't know what to do.  I mean I really do feel as if I've fallen in loe with him but he just seems like it doesn't make a difference to him.  I think he may like this other girl I don't know.  He's old fashioned too, so Ic an't overstep my bounds and ask him out myself because that would just put him off to start with.  I don't know.  It just hurts.  Like when I know he's been talking to the other girl.  I dunno.  It just hurts so badly.  I mean I wouldn't take him away from her for the world because he's too great for me to take him away from anyone and maybe not because of her exactly...I mean I would respect her feelings...but more than her I love him so much I want him to be happy with whoever he will be happy with.  If she makes him happier than I do or if he enjoys her company more than mine that's ok..I mean I'm going to be hurt and a little jealous but I would never try to take him away.  Not that I think I could take anyone away from anybody...but the fact is that if I could I wouldn't because he deserves to be happy.  I dunno. I just love him so much.  I guess...oh well.  I guess this is just a lovely chipper blog. So I'll talk toyou all later. Love you all.  Sleep tight and cherries, strawberries, and lots of grapes.